do it scared

Hello, beautiful people!

I pray you’re having an amazing day so far. This morning, I started my period and was feeling super sensitive so I wrote a new song. It’s a little tune dedicated to my family and the idea that we all are more similar than we may think. I’ve had more difficulty writing songs lately. I keep finding myself asking what people will think of them. I try to swat this thought away when it pops up. More than anything, I want to stay true to my voice. The little Perlizbeth in me that always wanted to be a singer, running inside our mobile home after school and blasting Avril Lavigne, jumping up and down on the bed and screaming the words at the top of my lungs.

Today, I’m doing an open mic with a friend of mine. We both are on this journey of discovering the artist within and part of that is being vulnerable and putting your artistry out there. After all, the artist within can only be found by sharing what you create. I shared my testimony with two friends of mine visiting and one of them said “By sharing your testimony, you strengthen others”. We talked about how our walk with God is always in progress and there is no ending. But that’s what makes the journey so beautiful. If we all had one moment where we thought “Yeah, this is what I was looking for. This is the answer. Now, I’ve done it all”…that would mean we stop growing. We stop becoming more, better, and finding out what else God has in store for us. He said even the angels in Heaven who live for eternity are still discovering new, beautiful ways that God is.

That’s how I’ve felt about life lately. I have loved learning and listening to God and all the things He’s had planned for me. I just can’t believe His goodness sometimes. To the point, where it feels like this is a dream I could wake up from any moment.

I am honored to be a child of God. His daughter forever and ever. My trust feels naive but it’s strengthened by His glory. I have so much faith in God’s faith in me. I know that He wouldn’t call me where I’m not supposed to be. So, I feel confident doing things scared. I know that fear will always be present. I’ll be nervous to make decisions forever. I’ll hesitate. But, I’ll still do it.

I hope you do it, too.

Peace and Love,

Perlizbeth