leave it

if you’ve ever walked around and passed a dog and their owner, sometimes they will tell their pet “leave it”. it’s a command for the dog to ignore whatever it is that may distract or keep the dog from doing what it is currently focused on.

i find myself doing the same.

each day there are new distractions for us to stray from our path.

others may give us advice and tell us how to move forward but only God can tell us to “leave it” and only we, ourselves, can make the decision and not only hear the command but follow it.

if you know you know.

i am doing so many uncomfy things lately. it’s been exciting and a little nerve-wracking. i try to notice when something bothers me. especially, in a way i’ve never felt. from there i assess how i want to handle it and go with that flow. i have ceased forcing anything. the worst thing you can do is try to make a square fit in a circular space. there are many alternatives!

find a square space. create your own space. consider not even trying to fit into a space.

there’s three right there.

i’ve also come across a sense of taking care of myself.

i came home last night after teaching three classes, taking a dance class, and a dance rehearsal. i didn’t feel hungry but i knew my body wanted nourishment. i thought about the amount of energy i expended. i thought about the sleep i wanted to get. i thought about how i’d wake up in the morning starving.

even though i didn’t feel hungry, my body wanted to be fed.

i have also been thinking about the differences in a want and a need.

there’s really only one thing we need.

everything else is a want.

and where i am going, i want to go. but i can only get there focusing on what i need. the rest, i have to leave.