testing testing

Magandang hapon!

Sometimes I think life is testing me. Yesterday, I talked a little about how I react to things being more important to me. And today I felt tested in that regard. It feels surreal to go through that almost immediately after speaking on it. But I was in a situation again that the first time made me panic. The second time, I was thrown off but okay. And today, about an hour ago, I could feel my heart rate rise, my body go into fight or flight, but I remained calm. I looked my fear straight on and faced it. I couldn’t have done that a year ago. Or even a couple months ago.

Sometimes I think it’s a test. But today, it feels like proof.

Proof that I’m not the same person I was at the beginning of this year. A receipt to who I used to be.

And if no one is proud of me today, I know I am. I know God is. I know my daughter is.

I’ve come too far to not be tested. The test, or the proof rather, confirms I am on the correct path of my journey. There is something to prove. If not, there wouldn’t be proof.

One foot in front of the other. I am walking forward no matter what happens. I will continue whatever I face.

I pray for my dreams to come true. Even if I’m not quite sure what they exactly are at this point. I know it’s music. I know it’s my music.

So, I hope you keep supporting.

I’m running forward regardless but it’d be nice to have some company.

Peace and Love,

Perlizbeth