spiral

Hey y’all!

Today, I’m working on recording five of my new songs to put together a new album. I’m wandering around pretty intuitively right now. Letting my heart lead me. From what I know, I am meant to play music. I am meant to sing.

I don’t want anything to get in the way of that. Lately, I’ve been experiencing a lot of familiar situations. I don’t think the situations themselves are the same but my reaction and how I’m feeling are eerily similar. But I want it to end up differently.

I feel like right now any decision I make will change the trajectory of my life. Whether for the good or bad or just the different. I want it to be different. I can try to make it good, the best even, but I’m trying to feel it out. Am I meant to be in this place? Where should I be spending my time? What should I be working on? Where am I heading?

I’m a little confused about how it’s all happening but I trust God’s plan for my life. He has always brought me where I need to be, exactly when I need to be there and how I was meant to get there. And I know His plan is in play always. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. The trust is hard to wrestle with. I want to trust myself and what I see more than God and how good He is to me.

I have to remind myself of that often.

So, I’m trying to keep my head on straight.

I’m rebuking a spiral.

I’m looking up and running forward until I get there.

Peace and Love,

Perlizbeth