It has been an interesting time in my music career. I feel like every new song I write is my new favorite song. I feel like writing and playing music is what I was born to do.

I also love it here in America. I know that’s a very odd opinion to have right now but I think progress is happening. The fight is ongoing and we aren’t backing down.

She is the person I would love to spend time with every day if I could. I hate being across the country from her. If I could, I would buy her a house right now and move her to Atlanta.

In rest, we get to experience ourselves without pressure. Without someone watching (or us watching ourselves). Without a time restraint. Without parameters. We are simply in existence without judgement. This is why rest is so important.

It knew that what I was about to express was real, raw. What I wanted to share was as vulnerable as I could get right now.

All things are created from absolute nothing. The fact that us humans are able to produce original work (however seemingly recycled) is a superpower.

What kind of treatment do you accept? How do you let people talk to you? What’s an acceptable way for people to behave towards you? You get to choose this.

I want so badly to return to my normal.

Stay to myself and keep my things bottled up.

Only express through art.

I want my soul to blaze. I want to light up. I want to shine. You can only do that in certain places. The right place at the right time. You can only get there if you’re willing to listen and go where you’re being called.

I want to stop running. I want to enjoy what is happening right now. I want to look around and be grateful. Constantly. And if I forget to do that… I want to remember and continue enjoying. Who am I to be so ungrateful for what God is gifting to me every second?

It’s rough. I feel like there is no end in sight sometimes. Like, what am I even dreaming? Where am I even going? What am I really meant to be doing and who will I become?

I’ve come too far to not be tested. The test, or the proof rather, confirms I am on the correct path of my journey. There is something to prove. If not, there wouldn’t be proof.

Lately, I’ve been experiencing a lot of familiar situations. I don’t think the situations themselves are the same but my reaction and how I’m feeling are eerily similar. But I want it to end up differently.

I’m working towards a version of myself that is unashamed, unapologetic, and very vulnerable. It’s daunting. It’s scary. But, I know it will be rewarding. It’s what feels right at this moment to work towards.

I believe everything happens for a reason. Nothing we encounter, nothing we do, nothing that happens to us happens for no reason. This is the ripple effect. A small step into a body of water or a tiny shift of dirt can cause a small ripple in movement. This ripple can become larger and larger until it’s a wave or even a tsunami. The more you ripple, the bigger the effect.

It was so scary. Standing up there, not sure how it was going to sound… Not sure if the band would vibe with it. Knowing that I was about to perform a song I wrote at like 8am that same day, I was terrified. I messed up words, chords, basically everything. But it was a feeling I can’t explain or replicate and something I want to experience over and over again.

I am honored to be a child of God. His daughter forever and ever. My trust feels naive but it’s strengthened by His glory. I have so much faith in God’s faith in me. I know that He wouldn’t call me where I’m not supposed to be. So, I feel confident doing things scared. I know that fear will always be present. I’ll be nervous to make decisions forever. I’ll hesitate. But, I’ll still do it.

In these moments, I turn to God. I believe fully in God’s goodness and that every gift of expression I have is a gift from God. To follow this path is to follow God’s plan for my life. To look forward and ignore what other’s may think (including what I may think honestly). Run towards my dreams knowing God’s already set it all in stone for me as I continue.